I've run across something that makes me curious, and curse the holes in my memory. Everything that's suspicious is nothing but hypothetical, except the timing.
In April 2009, a teacher named Louis Levine was arrested on counts of child pornography. He had lured lots of teenagers to his house, giving them condoms and porn and pot and alcohol. Then when they got to fooling around, he surreptitiously videotaped it. He had hundreds of tapes of kids having sex.
Now, Louis used to be the guy in charge of the Animal Room at a kids' museum I volunteered at. I was about fourteen at the time; so that was back in 1989. And the reports on his arrest show that he had been doing this since at least the early 80's. I look back and realize that if I'd run across him just a few years later, I'd probably be on those tapes of his.
However, theoretically, maybe I could be? I don't really have much memory of that period in my life. If I had been involved in his teen-sex scheme, wouldn't that hold some potential trigger of my multiple personalities?
Honestly, I know that that kind of hole in my memory would have been noted back then, even if I don't remember now. And at 14 I was a white-bread clean-cut kid. At 15, it would have been another story. So I know nothing happened. And yet.
You know, I actually accepted my self-diagnosis of MPD back in June of 2009. Weird timing, isn't it? Yep, it's False Memory Syndrome just waiting to happen.
I sorta understand how you feel. It's so hard to piece things together with everything so fragmented. Also, one of the odd people in my past, I think I did a post on it, my 5th grade teacher, he did some odd things and said some odd things. Well, at the time I did the post, probably around a year ago I'm guessing, I happened upon a news story and saw he was serving time for having a meth lab. Yea, it's unrelated. The thing that caught my attention though, the people he was caught with, were my age and he of course, was older. Like you, I don't know that there is a "big deal" for me in that but at the same time, he was kicked out of 3 school districts for a reason...
ReplyDeleteIt's hard, but sometimes you do have to learn to trust your instincts.
Yep, your post on it is what reminded me to go back and check the timing of his arrest and my self-diagnosis. Theoretically, I could put together the timing of the two and say that I must have had some run-in with him and hearing he went to jail made it 'safe' for the alters to start appearing enough for me to recognize. Only problem is, nothing did happen with him.
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