I'm Not THAT Kind of Christian [Me]

A friend saw my new formal collar and asked me, "Why did he choose a cross for you?" And it made me sad. Because that tells me that my friend had no clue that I am a Christian. My Master is not Christian, and neither is his other girl. But he honors my faith by giving me a cross for his collar.

Here in the South, being Christian is almost a given, usually. But in the kink community it is not. Christians have been so judgmental and intolerant, as a group, that it has driven many folks of non-Christian faith together. Many of them have landed in the kink community, and I would say that Christians in kink are a large minority, rather than the huge majority, as it is outside our community.

However, I've always believed that if I were living my Christian faith properly, it should show in my life so strongly that I should not need to tell people what faith I follow; it should be obvious. My faith, and the way I behave because of it, should put a kind of light into my life that makes people want to have what I have, want to believe what I believe. They should look at me and say, "Oh yes, she's a loving Christ-like person; I want to know her God." So for someone that I know to be surprised when I said I was a Christian... that made me sad, as if I had failed to live with love in my life.

But I was talking with another friend, and she brought a different perspective to this. She said that she has seen that peace in my life; she has wanted to have what I have. And perhaps the reason that someone was surprised I am a Christian has nothing to do with my relationship with God, but instead has to do with other Christians. Unfortunately, there are many people that identify themselves as Christians, but what I see in their lives is hate and intolerance. I don't want to be associated with those folks.

Other Christians would quickly denounce my lifestyle. I'm living in sin in a polyamorous relationship. I have multiple sex partners. I let - no ask - people to hit me with things. And I run around naked in front of people that I'm not married to! And let's not even consider what they'd do with my multiplicity - an exorcism for demon possession, maybe? So yes, I live a life many Christians would describe as sinful and horrible. You know what? I didn't ask them, anyway.

I have an understanding with my God, my ultimate parent figure; we're good. And I live the way that I feel He would want me to. I practice tolerance and love. I love those around me as if they are mine. I strive to improve myself and hold myself to high standards of honor. I try to be kind and generous to others - not just other Christians, but to all others. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But I try.

So I take it as a compliment that I don't look like those 'loud Christians' - please don't see me in their light. But I find it sad that when I tell someone I am a Christian, what they see is how different I am from those Christians, instead of seeing how much I try to be like Christ. My faith is strong; my religion needs an overhaul.