I'm Infected... [Me]

Are emotions contagious? Okay, so that's a silly question. Of course they are. I know if I am hanging out with friends, and they are giddy-happy about something, pretty soon I'll find myself giddy-happy as well. The emotions of those around you affect you - influence you - infect you. That's why laughter is described as 'infectious laughter'. We each have our own separate emotions, but they do 'leak out' a little and influence each other. Thus, when I'm annoyed and frustrated, Rubi has more power to take the front and express that.

Kiara has been head-over-heels in love with one of our friends for a long time. He came into our social circle about the time I started recognizing myself as multiple, and Kiara's responses to him were part of the 'clues' I had to figure this out. She loves him with that overwhelming, uncomplicated puppy love that children have access to. When he's around her, the world is a shinier happier place. He makes her giggle.

But I've encouraged that relationship to remain Kiara's. He's been my friend, and a play-partner for me and for Sam, but he's Kiara's special person. Or at least he has been. About a month ago, we started spending more time together. And I can't tell whether it's Kiara's adoration of him leaking to the rest of us, or simply emotions he's stirred up in me separately, but I'm in love.

And it's not just me and Kiara. He's spending time with each of us separately, sometimes just letting us shift and flow back and forth, other times calling out someone to focus on specifically. He has a lot of experience with another multiple, and is completely comfortable with us as a group and individuals. He also has experience with a Master/slave relationship, which means he knows how to work with Cherish. And she's given herself to him as completely as she can.

Sam likes playing with him, because he gives her the variety she craves, and can keep up with her in sheer energy, in bed, in play, and just in general. Even with Rubi, he's found a place where they work well together - he's found triggers that make him desirable to her. And even Silent One has been partially present, without the disaster I would expect from that. He's even invited Jarett to sit and have a meal with him, and of course, had several conversations with Lynn.

So yeah, I'm in love. We're in love. And it's grand. That explains why I haven't blogged much lately, but it's a good thing this time, not depression. I've been happily distracted.