Boy Time [Paul]

So I've been out a lot in the last couple of days. There's a couple of munches that are 'mine' to go to. A munch is where a bunch of kinky people get together for dinner and hanging out. Anyway, one of the ones that are mine was last night. And the night before, Boss started talking to me while I was on the computer, and so I ended up staying out a lot that night, too. Sometimes I feel like I shouldn't be out two nights in a row because it's kinda like being greedy. Other people want out time, too. But I got the last two evenings, and it was pretty good.

Night before last, I stayed in my older range, 8-14, and really just hung out with Boss. We watched some TV, and talked - like really talked - about how we relate to each other. I told him about how certain things make me jumpy and sorta reluctant to do stuff, and he asked me about things that I really do like doing with him, like watching movies and other stuff. And we talked about how we want things to be with us later on, and what's most important about it.

And then last night we went to the munch. Before we got there, we changed into my clothes. Well, mostly my clothes - my boots and a compression shirt and a tank top and hoodie jacket. So when we got there, I was already dressed as me. And we picked up MK on the way there, too. He's a cool guy to hang with.

Of course, some of the people there knew it was me right off, and said hi to me by my name, and that's awesome when that happens. And other people thought I was the host, and greeted me by her name, and asked what's wrong. Everybody thinks something's wrong if they don't realize it's me. Boss says my normal face expression is close to her mad face. So at least it's easy to see who's paying attention to which of us is out when I show up somewhere. And Boss is cool about saying, "No, it's Paul; he's good." If, you know, they keep asking or something.

So getting to hang out somewhere other than the club or home as ME was good, even if we did have to get through the 'no, everything's fine' bit a few times. I even went around and talked to some people more than I usually do, and tried not to be so shy like I usually am.

And it was cool having Boss and MK both there. I'm not really sure what MK and I are supposed to be with each other. But at least there's definitely a relationship between his system and my system, even if I'm not sure about from me particularly to any of him particularly. But several times, like two or three, he came up behind me and hugged me and like kissed on my neck like. I mean, not sloppy making out kinda stuff, just a plop kiss once. And though I usually shrug it off and maybe giggle a little when that happens, I like that he's being like openly, um, affectionate with me - and particularly me, because he knew who was out, no doubt.

So when we got home I got to hang with Boss some more before sleeping. And he and I had some good time together for a while before he asked if Baby Paul could be out. That's my younger range, age 2 or 5. Baby Paul is a lot more scared, and he doesn't talk much. He can suck his thumb and that's about it. But he and Boss got some time together, and that's good, too. Especially, it's good that Boss asked for him out, instead of pulling him out and springing it on me.

So I was talking with the girls this morning as we got ready for work, and we figured a few more things about Baby Paul. It looks like nobody's ever really read books to him, because Boss read him Rumplestiltskin, and that was even too much for him to get; he didn't even understand that the stuff Boss was saying had anything to do with the book. Looks like Boss needs to back up to picture books and Dr. Seuss with him. I mean, I don't remember having any books till I was in school myself, so I guess that's right. Now I can read and stuff 'cause I have the host's skills mostly. But I hope Boss keeps playing with Baby Paul and maybe reading books or playing with toys with him or something.